I was raised with no religion. Growing up I did not have a belief system and I was ok with that because it was all that I knew.
Initially, when I had my awakening it started with a series of events that happened over two years time. At first I disregarded, made excuses and ignored certain signs. As time passed and certain people were being placed in my path I started to question a lot of things. By the end of the year I realized what the purpose was of all those people that randomly came into my life with similar messages. This was no coincidence.
Often when one is awakened it starts like a door has been cracked open. Soon the door opens more and more and then you have a snowball effect. The more the door opens the more you start to notice signs that you wouldn't have noticed otherwise. This is what I mean when I say "awakening." Soon you feel like you are living life and thinking on a whole other level. I call it the next level.
I felt robbed at first...robbed of being not being able to see the world in such a new and beautiful light all these years. The various people who came into my life planted a seed. It was up to me to feed and water that seed. At first, I was not ready as so many are. Sometimes it can take years to fully become aware and accept that you are having an awakening.
Recently, I spoke with an old friend and he explained that he was in a dead end relationship, depressed, having problems with high blood pressure and going down a path which he felt was leading to alcoholism. A visit to the dentist office ended with the dentist saying that he must be under a great deal of stress because he was grinding his teeth in his sleep. Apparently grinding to the point that he needed a lot of dental work because of it. He is what I would call a "people pleaser." He is full of kindness, empathy, love and helping others. Often in his past he has encountered blood sucking opportunists who used him. He admits that he is kind and generous to a fault. He has been dating and living with a women who stifled his creative and eccentric nature. To the extent that if she felt he was rambling and talking to much she would tell him to stop talking. She had suggested that if he met someone and wanted to have relations on the side he could. She had crashed and totaled her car some years ago and had been driving his car since the accident. He had brought up to her over the years that she needed to look for a new car, but she continued to drive his car.
Many years ago I knew him as a creative, free thinking individual. Now he is shell of who he once was. He is currently working on his self worth and his own awakening. He thought he was ready to move forward and change. He even went so far as to end his dead end relationship and guess what...within a few weeks she went out and purchased a new car. Initially, his ex asked to stay with him for a month to have time to find her own apartment. He agreed. Now, she is still living in his apartment and he is staying in the second bedroom. This is an example of having an awakening, but not yet being ready to accept it and change. If you cannot be the change you wish to see then how can change happen?
“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Devil and Miss Prym
